Although I'm not good enough a writer to actually be at stake as an author, I feel that I have to express what I feel are points about life, and which I can't (at least not easily enough)write with good quality. I apologize for that :-( ... and hope people can enjoy these stories anyway.
Thursday, April 27, 2017
For the Sake of their "Maturity"
This story is too mature - at least for very young readers - in that it is about the issue of maturing and maturity in a sort of quite dubious sense.
Saturday, April 22, 2017
Hankering After Virtue of Attention vs. Hankering After Virtue of Truth
“Are you sure you really want that?!”
he interrogated.
“Yes, I'm quite certain! Because they
all insinuate for me that I am trying to get their sex appeal for
it!”
“I assure you that they all might be
after simply finding it in you that you admit to what your real
preferences are!”
“No, I can't believe that would be
what they aught to expect from me!”
“Then what do you think you are?! I,
for one, could love them for actually giving me that kind of
attention! Now isn't that what they actually should just seem to
pretend they want all that much just because a guy like you seems to
be into pretending to be a masculine kind of fellow!”
The other guy seemed to feel
intimidated. A few seconds he just sat there and seemed to reflect
over how he should judge the situation and the man he was talking to.
Then he looked away, and rose from his chair and said: “There's
something that you don't get about those girls in that they are as
clever as you are at insinuating that they are able to stand for not
being too much into sex to be real people!”
The other guy looked up. Looking a bit
startled he stared at the guy who had just risen. There was a trace
hatred in his eyes when he responded: “So! You think you can
actually find yourself to be better than me - and even than some of
those girls you've been talking about that you would like to - see
to it that you can actually be with them more than just this
causally?!”
“Conrad! I assure you they aren't
what you make them out to be! But then again, neither are you! As a
matter of fact neither they nor you have any confidence in caring to
be smart at knowing what they or you are actually about!”
Conrad gave a slight smug giggle, which
he quenched with slight bitterness. “Who do you think you are?! ...
As I said!”
“I don't know who I am! But I do know
that I'm not what you seem to be!”
The other guy rose threateningly. He
seemed to be into a notion of having to fight over this. “Really?!
Then how come you're so low as to feel that they are lower than one
would expect when one is just a horny guy looking for some kind of
appreciation!?”
The fellow he talked to peered at him
in a solid enough manner not to seem quite frightened. He sighed.
“Well, you're the one low enough to try to be into a fight right
now!”
The other guy seemed a little bit
nonplussed, hesitated for a moment and then sat down again. “Alright,
I won't try to fight you over it - at least not right now.”
Thoughtfully the other fellow said: “I
know know there's a possibility they all are hornier than they admit,
because I notice, every now and again, that they flirt with me just
to make me horny, and that is without me trying to get them to do it
for me! ... That is they sometimes do it too eagerly for me to feel
they don't feel desperate after a man's appreciation!”
“Yeah! Me too! So what's the big deal
about that?! So what if they're horny enough to really want your, or
any other guy's, appreciation?! What if they're just horny just in
order to present themselves as real reliable creatures of the kind we
know of as the sexy ones, and then try to charm you into admitting
that they are as beautiful as the aspire to be?”
“[Sigh] I don't see it in them to
actually try to be horny just for the sake of seeing much else in us
but the types of simply horny men that they could use as instruments
for their own lusts. It's not that they don't feel a lot better about
themselves when they get into a relationship that is sexual that you
think, is it?! I mean what then are you about with Tina and Maria
when they obviously seem to be horny enough for screwing you for the
sake only of sexual pleasure!? Cause, I mean: You even bragged about
that!”
“So what?! They're just horny so that
we can feel all the pleasure we want! And if they're not horny for
you as well, then that'd be your problem for it! It's you, not they,
who are actually too pathetic to have those kinds of sexual behaviors
about you! It's you, not they, who are actually about making sexual
behaviors not seem good enough for an occasion of man-to-woman
relationships!”
“Then how come you and the others
continue fighting about who wants who, and not like I try to settle
for that it's just immature to keep on fighting about it?!” With
that he ended the discussion and left the other guy.
Thursday, April 20, 2017
Actual Appreciation ...
She looked at him. Scornfully she saw
that he didn't seem to fall for the charm she had intended for him.
But the scorn was intended for herself as well as for him; therefore
she didn't feel guilty at all for feeling it. But to her surprise, he
seemed to mind.
He looked at her spitted resolutely.
The spit landed on the ground on front of his feet, and was intended
to land there. She felt this proved that he wasn't too obnoxious to
be viewed as provocative only; i.e. he probably wouldn't try to be
dangerous to her if she didn't do anything to him. But she felt like
not talking to him. Because he still did seem to obnoxious to be
looking at as a friend - or even a potential one, because he didn't
seem to mind that the spit had landed right in front of him as if it
was intended to insult her about not being smart enough at charming
him.
He, on his part, was feeling that she
had been insulting him in the first place, not that he'd been looking
for a charming or whatever or so person in her. It seemed obnoxious
for him that she had seemed scornful against that she seemed lousy at
caring for his care to seem safe enough to assume as moral enough for
being into not caring very much if she charmed him or not. It seemed
even worse for him that she didn't seem to feel even one bit guilty
about it.
But she felt that he had no right to
have that opinion about her. She was a girl who was supposed to be
charming and cute so that those who appreciated that in a woman would
be able to see that in her. Therefore she laughed scornfully once
more, and saw in him a pending guy who didn't care to fancy her being
as worth his appreciation as scores of others could. She thereby felt
free from guilt and free from remorse about it. She felt that she had
all the appreciation she needed and that he was just a more or less
sillily frank and fairly weird guy. Thereby she appreciated her own
inconsistency about her notions of coherency as though they were of
honest and good moral. But he noticed this and developed a slow
growing hatred for her ways about it.
Even though he had run into some other
girls who had behave similarly, he didn't feel broken enough to ever
give up on the notion of honesty being something else than what these
kinds of girls could appreciate it as. It seemed to him that she
sorted out moral as if it was her own, from the different types of
facts and notions about life that she had to care about on her way
into adulthood. She seemed to him to be appreciative of the notion of
truth as something to be bargained for, not as something to view as
real notion of what is real. The fact that she and a few other young
women seemed totally sure of themselves about being seemingly moral
forever for being that kind of fake seemed scary for him. He even
felt shattered when she looked at him that way, looking as if she
felt totally innocent after first scorning not only him, but also
truth and what truth is about.
He thereby watched her and her friends
as they left with an awe about the way they appreciated themselves.
She, meanwhile, felt that she had just left behind a fellow who was
unusually corny and unappreciative of the sense she had of herself as
good enough for anyone to appreciate - not excluding the boys or
men she might want to be appreciated by. She thereby felt she needed
to talk to one her close friends about how to deal with this fellow.
The two of them talked later that night
and decided to seem to be subjects of his scorn for no reason. This,
she felt though, was not enough. They need to, she told her friend,
seem to be appreciative of even his notion of how he views himself.
They should have to, she felt, seemingly be into caring also for
those who were to be viewed as outsiders - at least from their own
point of view. Thereby, people would appreciate the two of them as
both cute and as caring as they are cute!
“I guess we can take that kind of
stands,” her friend agreed. “But I think we should also show them
that he is absolutely not an interesting guy for us! Because we
should not seem to be into those men who fancy us young girls to be
what they should be dealing with. Instead, they should view us as
better than that they could ever reach us - nor actually scorn us,
for that matter!”
“Okay! ... To start with, then we
could say to our parents that we've run into a guy who was
superficial enough not to admit that what we are is what he shouldn't
be minding as if there was any reason for him to care to tell us what
we are to be seen as. Because there seems to be a notion in him of
actually having it he is the one to be a fellow to appreciate.”
So they did.
Four months later, the two girls were
at a disco and one of them spotted what seemed to be that same
fellow. They noticed that the son of a friend of their parents was
with him. This made them curious.
Thereby they felt like watching them
now and again for the rest of the evening. Doing so they got he
impression of that the guy who was a friend of their families was
attempting to reveal the fellow as immature, and thereby shouldn't be
there. This they found to be worthwhile, as they also could
appreciate the notion of this guy being the same as the one they had
complained to their parents about. But then, to their disappointment,
they observed him say something to their friend-of-the-family guy,
who, seemingly a bit unsure of himself, withdrew for a while.
When he came back, he said something
back to the other one, which seemed to make him feel both indignant
and insulted. But he reacted by insulting him back, it seemed, and
soon the two of them were very hostile towards each other. After a
few minutes of quarreling the two of them decided, it seemed, to
continue it somewhere else. The two girls saw them leave the disco,
each of them, seemingly, bringing a friend with him.
They decided to follow the four of them
by stealth, which they did, and that lead them to a park, where a
fight broke out between the two whom they had been observing. It went
on for perhaps four minutes before the guy who's parents knew their
parents was injured severely enough to no longer stand a chance. When
that happened the two fellows who had followed along as friends
discussed something for a while.
After a few minutes the two of them
decided, or so it seemed, that the guy whom the girls had been
troubled by had won. They thereby both pointed at him with respect
and then the three of them left the girls' parents' friends' son
bleeding and despised. This the two girls found to be scary.
They waited for about five minutes,
then they also left, and began walking towards the house of one of
them. On their way there, the other one said: “Wow, he didn't seem
able even to reach his phone and call the cops or something! I wonder
if we should be telling your parents about how we could have but
didn't dare to be helping him - or else what else we should say!”
“Me too! I wonder what we are to be
about now as we don't have a notion of what is going to happen to
that fellow who after all helped us make that insultive guy seem like
a bad person!” She shivered. “Wonders how he will survive, and if
we've actually killed him by not staying there and saving his life!”
“I think we've better see to it that
our parents get there as quick as possible!” Neither she nor her
friend reflected much over calling an ambulance, because the two of
them knew that the four guys had been into something that was sort of
tradition not to tell the authorities about!
When they had finished their walk, they
entered the house of the one of them who had felt insulted in the
first place, As they spoke to their parents, they could not express
what they found themselves to seem to appreciate about the guys who
had been escorts and judges of the two fighters. They somehow felt
that they needed to express that, but that they couldn't, because it
was a secret notion of - so to speak - what went wrong in a man,
that the two of them were about. Instead, the conversation emerged in
describing the situation that the two of them had been stuck there,
and couldn't help the fellow, which was partly because of their
appreciation of those who had - by fair notions of what is correct
for such a fight - deemed the guy they could have helped as a
fellow to be left behind. Thereby, the two of them eventually decided
to never speak again to anyone about how to resurrect a man who has
lost a fight!
Two months later, the two parents (of
one of them) whom they had talked to said to them that they are to be
sweet and good for the sake of not seeming to be involved in that the
two guys fought, nor that they had been insulting each other. Instead
of explaining for them why this was important, they told the girls
not to even think about what had happened. And in case either of them
ever just happened to think about it anyway, she should say to
herself that it was just imagination!
Their daughter looked at them and
asked: “What shall I say to those who want to know why we had it in
us to seem satisfied by that we had been defended by a friend of the
family?”
Her father looked at her. “Is there
anything they could happen to say to you that wouldn't be seen as
that they make something of a notion that is just a fantasy?!”
She looked thoughtful for a while. “I
guess not,” she answered, “but I can't be quite sure about that.
Now her mother was the one to ask: “I
guess you can't have it they don't feel like being better at
understanding how to be - even potential - friends - of you or
anyone else around here, that that they might just continue feeling
that it's real, even when you say it isn't?!”
“No, I guess they shouldn't be too
stubborn for me to handle in a way that doesn't make me think about
that stuff as a reality!” she said, and then hid that notion deeply
inside of her.
Her mother looked at her and inquired:
“Are you sure you never will be too unreliable to stay away from
ever seeming to be into anything of what they could view as a real
kind of vanity?”
“No, I'm not totally sure about that,
mama!”
“Then I'll have to keep you away from
those people who might find out from you otherwise!”
“And who are they?”
“It's the people I've been talking to
down in the village. They aren't kids like you, and I don't think
there are any kids who will ever become that nosy!”
“So I have to stay away from adults
from now on?! Mom, I'm thirteen, and I'm soon into feeling like an
adult myself! So how can I avoid even seeing those people that I soon
will pertain to?!”
“It's not the young adults that you
shouldn't pertain to, just some of the older ones, and I'll tell you
eventually exactly which of the older ones that will be!”
“Oh! Good! Then I think I can
manage!”
“Good, then!” her mother said.
“Good!” her father also said.
“From now now on you will not seem to
be inept for excuses of the kind that are called for by those who
forge that they comprehend, the right way, what there is to a society
and what we all should appreciate from one another! That is you
should not be wrong for God to take as a defence for His absoluteness
about Jesus and what He stands for about us and our Christian cares!
From now on you will be good Christians, and pray every day before
you go to bed! Otherwise those things of the past might come and
haunt you!”
She looked at her father. “Okay, dad!
I'll become a good Christian from now on!” she said and realized
that she would have to stick to this decision for the rest of her
life.
Her friend, who had been silent for a
long time now asked: “How come there isn't any certainties about
what there is in the afterlife, so that one can feel very sure that
one isn't doing something that will turn out to be unfruitful?!”
“I suppose,” the father objected,
“you don't care to have it that Christ i sour saviour and that it
will be that way no matter what we think or might say about it!”
The mother looked at them and added:
“You must see to it that you'll be forever loyal with Christ, and
that He'll be there for you to give you the safety you need!”
The two girls looked at each other. “I
want to see to it that Christ will be there for all of us,” the one
who wasn't a daughter of the family answered. “But I also want to
see Him as the savior whom we all can trust, and I thereby want to be
sure that he will give us an afterlife that will be okay!”
“I can,” the mother answered, “see
it in you, to be able to take it that Jesus isn't the one to be
telling everybody, just the one to be caring for everyone! Remember
it is Satan who can otherwise be the ne to also talk to you as though
there was a safe assumption!” She looked at her daughters friend
and seemed to be sure of herself.
The girl swallowed. “Okay. I guess I
can go for it that way, then. So where do I begin trying to conceive
myself as a subject of Christ rather than the type of girl who never
would feel there was any safety in what isn't said!?”
The mother looked at her. “Don't
pretend that you don't need to believe in order to stay with Jesus!”
The two girls looked at each other
again. “Then how come I and your daughter don't have it in Jesus to
say to God that we need to be saved in a way so that we really can
appreciate ourselves as safely His?! It's we, isn't it, who will have
to appreciate God, and what if he doesn't have to appreciate us
back?!”
Both of her friend's parents looked a
bit startled over this query. She saw this and continued: Thereby
I'll be platonically smart at having Jesus there, and I'll have the
notion of myself as one with Him and God forever, but I won't be safe
enough against the devil unless there can be a sureness that he
cannot reach me even by taking my life!”
“It will be your decision to
understand God the way that you feel you should have to!” the
father said. “From now on you will have to speak to your own
parents about it! We have had enough of this now! It is in your
family, not ours, that there's a need to sort out what God wants from
you!” His wife seemed to agree with him.
Tuesday, April 4, 2017
Tuesday, March 7, 2017
The Girls' School Master
“Welcome to class!” he said.
The girls looked up. Two of them
started smiling at him in a way he recognized as simple enough to
hide that they were hiding something. Most of the others just
straightened their backs and seemed to be preparing to listen.
Being a male teacher for this
all-female class could hardly mean safety to assume that they all
would fancy either listening to what he had to say, nor that they
would even look up to him enough not to insinuate that there was a
mistake in letting him be there and earn a salary for doing it! He
had been told they were, at least potentially, among the worst in the state about such
insinuations - “except for to the extent we can keep them from
thinking they'll ever get away with it!” they had said; both of the
two people who he spoke to when applying for this job said something
in that fashion.
It was not easy for him to get this
job. But he had fairly good merits as a man capable of being soft and
authoritarian at the same time. It had been fascinating for him to
portray himself as the man for this work place, after seeing an ad
for a, preferably male, teacher for girls who lacked the belief in
the discipline of care and development.
As he sat down, he noticed something on
his desk. It was a book, which made him insinuated for him that
someone had been assuming he needed something to read by the side.
“Oh, what have we here?!” he asked, and picked it up.
As he did, there somehow seemed to be a
slight air of delight among some of the girls.
He looked at its back side. Doing this
he read that it was about “how to stand up against those who can
manipulate people into belief in pretending there's a point to every
scorn against humility that could be expected in certain situations.”
Thereby he looked up, and saw the girls
giggling at him. Looking at them he said: “I'm not sure that I need
this!” upon which there was a silence.
One of the girls said: “It seems they
have given you a book in order for you to find out how to feel
humility is enough for handling those who all seem intent on being
hardy and cruel!”
From behind her another girl began
speaking: “I guess they all want you to find out what it's like to
be a teacher for an all-girl class?! Well here we are! And what do
you think of us?!”
“I don't know what to make of you all
yet!” he answered, upon which there was a brief mumble among the
girls.
“No, that figures!” someone said
and blew her bubble-gum.
Another girl, who sat next to her,
looked at her and said: “How come they give him a book without
making him find out how come he has to read it?!”
The girl with the gum answered she
thought that “They need him to know why he seems to be an authority
unless he believes that they are insinuative of virtue about care for
tendencies for care for love and affection!”
“I guess you mean they care for
sensuality, in that respect, then?” he remarked.
The girls smiled and said: “I don't
need you to say that you have to be into sensuality for the need of
destabilizing that those who represent power can pretend that we are
scoundrels will continue to do so for those years to come when we
have finished this education, and will need to propose they be seen
as vain those who pretend we're to be looked down upon!”
“I see that this book comes from
someone in this class, then!” he said finally.
Some of the girls smiled musingly over
that he said it. A few of them started to be a bit vulgar so that he
felt unsure of whether or not he could withstand as authority against
them! “Do you mean that I should try to be soft on that you try to
be clever at pretending to be normal, whereas - even though -
the faculty has had it you shouldn't be seen that way!?”
One of the girls looked at him and
said: “Am I stupid enough for them to say that about and are you
cynical enough to believe them!?”
“I must be cynical! The faculty will
be against me to the extent I'm not!”
She looked at him again and said: “Why
not find us to be the kinds of teens who find ourselves to be
virtuous at least for the sake of interpreting mistakes as immature
to make, and thereby not the need of being tutored by a special
teacher such as yourself!?”
“It's because they, the faculty,
don't see it in you to be that kind of mature!”
“Then how come they seem to be with
you about that you shall lead this class by rather good and gentle
means?!”
“That's because they feel that I have
so far managed to have you think about yourselves as being smart
enough not to pretend to be sensible about what to do about your
situation of being in a school for those distrusted by their
elders!”
“Then how come we all feel you need
that kind of a present?!” she asked, seemingly indicating the book.
“I don't know why!” he said, and
then finally began his lesson.
Two weeks later he was called to a
meeting with the school's board of officials. They told him that he
was not allowed to feel that the girls had the right to feel that
they were at all more smart than those who went to the ordinary
schools where they could have been. They also said that he was going
to have to leave his job after finishing the on-going school year.
Thursday, February 9, 2017
That's What Men Should Be Like (According to Some!)
“It's Beatrice and that other Ann who
are into pretending men should be of authority if any good at all!”
His girlfriend (whose name also was
Ann) looked at him. “Are you sure?”
“Almost!” he responded. “I feel
quite certain! But to the extent there's a point in it for you,
perhaps you could find out from a girls' perspective!?”
“I guess I can!” she answered. “But
I don't want to jump to conclusions about them; not with you, and not
when I'm checking it in that way! ... So how do you want me to find
out?!”
“Eh, hm. I'm of sure about that!”
“I guess they could be seen as the
bitches that sort of have us all be evil in that sense?!”
“Mmh, yeah, that's what I mean!”
“I feel certain that Beatrice is
actually lesbian, and she that other girl seems straight! Somehow I
feel then that they should not be seen as the same kind of bitchy in
that sense! ... I wonder if it's like one of them is about seeing men
as inferior unless they hurt her, and the other like into wanting to
piggy-back about it?!”
He looked thoughtful. “Yeah I guess
that could be so!”
“It's not like I'm always right or
something! It's not that I couldn't be wrong! Perhaps the two of them
are almost exactly the same - even though I've got something of a
gut feeling to the contrary!?”
He sighed. “Yeah, perhaps that is
so!”
“But, Jeff, how did you reach that
conclusion, in the first place?”
“It's the way the behave, that's
all!” he answered.
“Then I feel we shouldn't be sure to
begin with! Perhaps they're just bitchy because somehow, ... it's
like one of them might have a mother who is like that! The other
might just be sort of trying to pretend to be like that! ... Or
something like that, perhaps, right?!”
He sighed again. “Yeah okay, perhaps
I've been a little bit hasty about them. I can agree that I don't
know their moms, nor if either of them has any like silly faking of
herself as such a bitch.” he said and sighed once more. Then he
added: “But don't you know it?! It's three of that other Ann's and
at least one of Beatrice's ex-boyfriends who have been made to look
evil simply because they were being good to her!”
“Ohh! That guy!? ... I mean that
ex-boyfriend of Beatrice's!? ... Yeah! I find that guy to be a bit
too good to be viewed as such a butthead evil guy!”
“Yeah that guy!” he said feeling
certain she meant the same kid.
“I don't remember his name really!
Was it Oscar?”
“It might have been! Either way I
found out from him, and from two of the other Ann's exes that they
were badly treated as such!”
“And the forth guy?!”
“Him I found out about from that his
mother told my parents about it!”
Now his girlfriend looked thoughtful.
“Alright!” she said. “I'll settle for that she's almost
certainly that kind of an evil! I'll find out about Beatrice
tomorrow, I think! Because, you know, they're having a girls'
gathering in the park near my work place every Wednesday. I sometimes
go to them after lunch. I mean they sit close to where I usually
eat.”
“Great! I suppose they don't want to
talk about it, perhaps, though!?”
“I know, but I'll find out; at least
I think so!”
“Great! But how?”
“Don't you worry! I think I can find
out about them, if you'll only leave it to me!” she said firmly.
“Why do you feel that I can't take
part in that?!”
“Because they feel that those who are
into what a man has been thinking should not be considered friends,
enough even to answer to her questions!”
He looked startled. “Oh! It's all
that bad!”
“Kind of!”
“Alright, Ann! Do it your way then!”
he said, but felt weirdly that perhaps she could be manipulated by
them if she didn't let him in on it. “It's sad but true, isn't it,”
he added, “that they, and not those who say to themselves that men
should be allowed to be modest, are into such esteem about
themselves! ... Right?!”
She sighed. “Yeah, honey! It's sad!
But now I really need you to let me go, so that I don't have an air
of too male friendly for them about me!”
“I can't see the real clue you have
about them unless you tell it to me right away! And I can't find a
way to be trusting you anymore if you don't want to tell me!”
“Then I'll tell you this! I find out
how they behave about me finding it in me to want you to seem to be a
nice enough guy to have as a boyfriend! They try to tell me how
aren't, perhaps, or they try to tell me what to expect from someone
like you. Thirdly, perhaps they try to find out what you really are
of a man - or of a boy, they might perhaps be thinking! ... Now,
how do you want me to find out if it isn't about you that they can
relate to what men are like!?”
He thought about this for a while. “I
guess that it could also be that it's your bro or dad that you'd ask
them about!”
“I know! But if they don't find that
I have reason to think about you, then I can't relate back to
speaking to you without them having a hunch about it!”
“I guess you can find out, then,
about both me and your dad, and perhaps your little bro as well!?”
“I guess I might do that!” she said
and with that they decided to follow through with it that way.
After work the next day they spoke
again about it, and she had found out that they indeed found both her
dad and boyfriend to be silly enough fellows not to pay much
attention to. About her little bro they said that perhaps he was
being an innocent little kid so far, and that could be “fine so to
speak,” they had told her. But later on in life he would probably
grow up and thereby be the type of fellow that perhaps needed to
learn how to make his stands so that he could be “seen as a real
guy to be into as what a man is, and not what he pretends to be when
he's not about being what he really is into that they should fancy
him as!”
“That's just about all they said!”
Ann said.
Her boyfriend looked troubled and
stupefied. “I suppose,” he said hesitantly, “that it's me they
see as the type of fellow who's just faking it! ... and those who
seem to be dishonest as the only men who are for real then, or should
we say to be treated as such?!”
“I guess they meant something like
that you - and my dad as well - can't be trusted for their
kindness, while they themselves - and I too - should be! That I
don't agree with! At least not the part about them being more
trustworthy than you or my dad! But I can agree with the part of it
that is that men in general are not trustworthy unless one sees the
worst side of them already. Because I can find them to find
themselves clever at pretending I should be trusting them just
because they find themselves to be what I should like to view as
trustworthy!”
“I find myself to be an exceptional
guy, then!” Jeff said.
“I guess that a man-woman in a
relationship aught to be about trust in the first place, right,
Jeff?!”
“Yeah!” She saw that he kind of -
or at least almost - mused about it.
Jeff looked at her and added: “Why
then find responsibility in pretending that they aren't ridiculous in
trying to be cute and so, for you, and why not commit yourself to me
for the sake of our relationship to each other!”
She looked at him. “Oh, Jeff! You and
I should perhaps do that! Perhaps we should feel that we are the only
ones to really be good enough for each other!”
“Then why don't you try to feel that
I am the only guy there'll ever be for ya!? ... Or don't you and I
fit together just like Adam and Eve for it!?”
“Yeah, Jeff! I guess we do!”
Thereby Ann and Jeff began a
relationship where she secretly vindicated Jeff's esteem as a guy to
be reckoned with as superior. The two of them thereby were or at
least seemed to be adapted to what that Beatrice and that other Ann
had seemingly had it a man should be. Indeed they (almost
subconsciously) gave up the morals that they felt those two (and, as
they eventually found out, at least a few other women as well, it
seemed) would define as “surface good”. ...
Saturday, February 4, 2017
It's a Guy Whom They, the Women, Want!
Victor looked annoyed. “Don't you
see?!” he asked. “It must be he and not the girls who cares to
pretend as if something about the so-called moral in that he has all
of them!”
“It's they who hide it all the time!”
his friend Seb answered.
“They don't see their own interest as
something too important in it all! What do you mean that it even
could be they who actually care to pretend as if it really is
adequate that he has them all?!”
“They might want to be hiding their
wrongs behind that fellow!”
This seemed to blow Victor's mind a
bit. He flinched, looked thoughtful and said. “I don't know for
certain if that perhaps explain why they behave as they do.”
“Why else would they be into
believing that they have something for him? In a sense, though, they
seem to have something for just about any authority man. Only, I
guess, this man is especially smart at having them think that they
can be hiding behind his ass forever!”
Victor peered thoughtfully. “I guess
that could be so!” he said after a while.
Two days later, the two friends went to
a fairly well-lit park where they knew the womanizer they had been
talking about usually picked up a few girls after having been at a
bar where he also did that, but where he also left them speechless
about that he didn't really take anyone home with him.
The two of them hid up in a dark
treetop. From there they hoped to see, in binoculars, what the son of
a bitch was doing. ... But to begin with they had to find him, for
which they searched the park, using their binoculars. After they had
been doing that for about twenty-five minutes, Seb spotted him
entering the park, and pointed this out for Victor.
They watched him stand there at first,
looking around, and having a seemingly delightful appearance. Then he
picked up two young women (one around twenty, the other a little
older) who had begun looking at him. After talking to the two of them
for a while he also caught the eye of a teenage girl who passed by,
seemingly on her way to a popular disco that lay there right next to
the park.
The two young women greeted the
teenager. The older one of them heartily took her hand in hers. Then
she assisted her, it seemed, in trying to score on the guy. Meanwhile
the younger of the two made herself available for either him or one
of the other two in the small party of four that had now gathered, by
assisting him in making clear that he was a guy to trust for the type
of relations that one should be expecting to last.
Seb looked at his friend. “Clearly he
wants them all three for his bedtime fun! Now, why, do you think,
will they be accessible for him?!”
“Perhaps because of what you've been
saying, right?!”
“Hmh. He's there for them in a sense
that makes them feel assured that they don't seem guilty unless he
fails to emphasize his air of adventurous escapades! That's why they
love him for it! It - seemingly, at least! - protects them from
seeming bad even when they are!”
While they were talking, the guy had
been joined by yet another girl, who was around twenty, and with the
four of them he began walking towards a dim area of the park. Seeing
this, Seb said: “This is proof that they never will be available
that way for someone who doesn't approve of having them hide hide
behind him! It's proof because he walks that way in order to reassure
then that he actually will be giving them that kind of adventure!”
“Then what,” Victor asked, “should
we do about it? For we don't care, do we, and we don't have to know,
what it is to be similar to the type of damned fop! Therefore, I ask
you, my dear friend, why should we sit here, in the first place, up
in the treetop, wait for the little incident of the charmer catching
a few girls!? Why should I have to trust you as a friend if we can't
go down there and spy more thoroughly on them so, that we can learn
how to charm them ourselves!?”
“I don't think we'll learn anything
much from doing that! Besides, it's probably risky!”
Victor sighed. “Are you sure? ...
Because then I ask again: How come you feel they were worth it to spy
on, in the first place?”
“It's because I already know
everything! The whole deal with him is that he shouldn't be seen as
what they see him as! My problem is only why those girls find it
attractive to be in the illusion that they really get away with it!”
“I assume,” Victor answered,
knitting his brows, “that they can expect some kind of
self-fulfilling prophecy about that!”
“Great! Then we've solved that
problem as well! Then - I agree - it would be worth it, perhaps,
to be spying on them more closely! But for that sake we need to be
better prepared than just with a pair of binoculars!”
“I agree! Do you mean that we should
by saying that to people try to have him seem ridiculous to be
trusting, or do you mean that we should keep it a secret?!”
“I mean that we should let people
know, but carefully!”
“How can we be careful enough about
it?”
“I don't like that you see that as a
problem. I hope we both are able to use our skills and intuitions for
it! I hope you, as well as I, can keep your ways good enough for that
kind of word to spread, and that without the girls who support him
focusing on us as his and their enemy!”
“Okay, I'll try to stick with that!”
Two months later, the two friends had
spread their word about it. They found themselves to be a bit backed
up by some women and many men about it. But, they did not manage to
very much undo the harm they found the guy to be doing! In that, they
somehow found the situation to be fairly normal! ...
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