Although I'm not good enough a writer to actually be at stake as an author, I feel that I have to express what I feel are points about life, and which I can't (at least not easily enough)write with good quality. I apologize for that :-( ... and hope people can enjoy these stories anyway.
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
A Festivity of Feminine Virtue
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Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Reason not to Believe ''They" Are Good People?
Sonya sat in wonderment at the dinner
table with her family and talked to them. She was astonished about
something she was telling them about. “I mean it's hardly true that
I can even consider them to be for real!” she said, and contented:
“the two of them, who moreover also seem quite possible as
half-siblings, at least, keep on saying that!
“They seem to feel like I am the one
to be ridiculous to be the one to believe them - and that is to
believe either interpretation of them!”
Her husband looked at her in amazement.
“You mean they're really telling you either that they're stalling
all the time or even that their middle name is Stalin or so?!”
She looked indignantly at him. Although
she didn't mean that he was to be despised, he reacted to her gaze
somewhat defensively. She realized this and said: “I'm sorry that I
seemed angry at you! Of course its them I'm angry with Carl!”
“I know! I just can't help but
finding there to be a dilemma about what to make of it when you look
like that!”
His wife looked at him softly.
“I'm sorry, honey! But you do know, don't you, that I never would
want you to be viewed as anything like them or so! Right?”
“Yeah, of course!” he chuckled.
Sonya smiled. “Anyway, what I heard
from one of my associates is that he has heard, from someone he
didn't care to mention, is the two of them are being weird about it
because they really tend to believe in Stalinism. Although this seems
totally weird nowadays, at least, they seemingly, he said, are smart
at really pretending they're blackmailed about their name.”
Carl looked at her. “Look,” he
said, “whatever that Russian business associate of yours says, it's
totally impossible that someone would in this day and age be able to
do that!”
Sonya looked at him. “Even so I feel
that there's not a virtue in denying that weirdos that pretend so
might become the type of nuisance that in the end are really
dangerous for me!”
He sighed and looked at his
half-Russian wife. “Sonya, it's not he who should have said to you
that it's anything to care much about! It's not he who should have
been talking to you in the first place! I don't know if your Russian
mother has it in her to be into that such things are possible here in
the western world. But we aren't really susceptible to anything of
the kind! I mean there's no thought of Stalin that would ever find
any fertile soil around here!”
Sonya sighed. “Yeah, I know, Carl!
Here in your part of Europe he wouldn't be anything but the laughing
stock for all of us to have, if it weren't for the insolence of the
way I and my mother find him to be Still somehow in power!”
He giggled a little while saying: “I
didn't find there to be anything of this severe paranoia in you I
answered your ad for a husband with relevance for helping you bound
to our society! It seems to me now that you, not I, will be the one
to deem relevant for that ridicule of being sophisticated as a
manipulator who wants her fantasies be viewed as relevant for her
associates and others to be into believing anything of!”
“Oh! You bastard of a guy! How can
you tell me I'm not relevant for it?! There's not anything in what
I've said that isn't into something that everyone else could have
fallen for! There's relevance for that kind of trickery in almost
anyone, in the sense that they don't even see that later on they
might fall into another trap than the one that is too obvious to
believe they would even exist those people doing that stuff that is
on the surface of their attitudes!”
“I can't help that I'm giggling,”
he said and felt that his laughter actually could have been repressed
a little better. “But I can help that there's not any alternative
for them but to see it in you that he, and then also you, should be
looked at as if they have any potential to believe in that Stalinism
still exists!”
“I don't feel that it does! I didn't
even when I was a girl, who came to this country because my mother
happened to find a husband who could readily accept her and me as his
family!”
“I don't find that to be any
different from that I am supposed to believe that your family now is
situated very differently from back then, since you still really need
my support for being into this country as an offset against those who
don't seem to realize that they actually aren't capable of that
cunning of pretension that ridicules the potential agony of being
stuck up and imbecile!”
“I can't say it isn't your country
that isn't about pretending our country isn't very frightening
compared to yours!”
“I mean that! It is thereby I who
never would accept that part of a theory that says a Stalinist - or
even his relative - should ever appear in our social contexts or
minds!”
“There's not any relevance for me to
say that it's your country that is very generous on that behalf!”
“Then how come my country isn't
relevant for us all to say that about?!”
“It's because they don't all seem to
be appreciating the type of truth that says that kind of a thing!”
“I don't find you to be amusing now,
and I don't even find you attractive enough to be the woman I wanted
just two months ago!”
“I can't say that those fakers of
some kind of enstallment or Stalinism are actually being what they
actually are in real life when they seem to be those potential
business partners! What I'm worried about is their masquerade, hardly
at all, really, that stuff about them actually meaning that they
could represent themselves like that!”
“I can see then that you're talking
to me the way that I hoped you would! Finally I got you to really
say that part of it all! You know I actually wondered what you were
leading up to.”
“Okay! Then why shouldn't there also
be a rule about business that those who don't represent themselves
shouldn't be there on those conferences?!”
“Oh God! Don't they have that in that
place! I mean it's the conference centre that really should see to it
that they can't pertain to pretending that much about what they are
there for!”
With an air of relief over his outburst
against them, Sonya replied: “Yeah, that's true! Do you mean you're
sure the other centres wouldn't ever pertain to that!?”
“Yeah - I'm almost sure!”
“Almost?!”
“Yeah!”
“How can one be sure not to be
pestered by them again then?!”
“I can't tell for certain honey! But
I can say there isn't any relevance for them in the other places I
know!”
“Really!?”
“Really!”
“Then how come the man I talked to
didn't seem to feel that he had been rid of them when he was at the
centre where he asked around about them?!”
“He didn't?!”
“No! He didn't seem to be anything
but pestered by them even when he was at either one of the other two
places he mentioned as good - otherwise that is - for him in his
search for new business partners!”
“That seems totally ridiculous!”
“I can't say it's ridiculous since
they are all foreigners there, even easterners most of them! Thereby
I can tell that someone probably has prejudice about foreigners, at
least easterners, and wants them to seem irrelevant for the type of
business we all are into that there should be!”
He sighed. “I can't believe my ears
about that!”
“You should! We're actually into this
trouble about why foreigners are to be viewed as superfakers about
why they should be here and not in their own country and tend to take
things back to how things were way back, or so!”
He looked at her in disbelief. I still
can't quite believe that you really mean to say they're actually
faking that in order to make foreigners stay away from ... is that
from business here, you think, they should stay away?!”
“Yeah!”
“Then how come they're not into
business about trying to fake that you're all the types of imbecile
people who should really believe we aren't into business that are
applicable for their so-called faking attitudes?!”
“I don't believe you're actually into
anything that is about business, then! I mean if you're faking that
they actually could be business people, then how come they seem at
all to be into business in your circles!?”
“It's because I can't find the reason
for them to be into so-called business in the first place! That is I
can't believe they're trying to be into - even, then, if you must
be a bastard about it! - our type of business, which - as far as
I go, by the way - is much more successful than yours!”
“You feel we all aught to be into
business together and then you should be able to brag about the
so-called success, of which I have seen almost nothing but an
extravagance as if to show of money, but which really did seem to be
a rather cheap facade for a looser to have to hide the failures of
the past!”
“I have been into more money than you
can ask for! I have even bought that company you were speaking to me
about last month! I have also developed assets in the US, which I
shall apply to those businesses I have at home for the sake of
developing the absolute power over the market that I can be going to
need for future incomes. ...”
“You have, behind my back, created
hidden assets!? You have, behind my back bought the company I had
been aspiring to buy for several years!?”
She looked at him, somewhat solemnly.
“Yes, I have!” she replied.
“Oh gosh!”
She smiled at him, still solemnly into
seeing it openly in him to be her inferior, in the actual sense, but
now also worried that he might condemn her attitude of sovereignty.
“I find there to be a problem with
that you and I continue to do business, not to mentioned being
married!” she said, after a short while, now sophisticatedly trying
not to be solemn.
“I can't believe what I hear!”
Solemn again, she said: “You're not
into the type of business I am. I just used you for a springboard for
my further affairs, and will later on not mention you accept as my
late husband,” she said and shot him.
Monday, June 1, 2015
Sisters of Sex Business
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Saturday, May 16, 2015
The Witch Mother and her Good and Evil Twin Daughters
”Father, what are we all about now
that we can seemingly blame it on the other one!?”
“Dear, we don't have to ask it! It
seems she's just coming along as your trailer to be judged as an
asshole for all time and eternity, and I - as well as your mother
- can tend to forever blame your twin for the evils you or the rest
of the family do!”
“Great papa! Then she and I should go
to the park and there have everyone believe they're evil to the
extent they don't repress that she's cunning at having the seeming
morals that we don't wandu pertain to!”
“Yeah, great!” her dad answered.
“Now your mama and I are gonna terrorize her a little more for each
month that passes - and then we'll know for eternal time how to
seem good although we're actually cunning and not at all the lazy
fuckers that keep on pertaining to morals simply because they're not
able to be cunning like the real people, like us!”
“I'm gonna tell my mama about all of
this! Then she and you can pleasure yourselves incenstously against
her! And the two of you will never have to worry again about your
brighter child being hurt by it - since she, that meaning I, is not
susceptible for blackmail - and thus not as fun to watch being
tormented and then unable to tell about it!”
“Great!” her father said.
“Then let's all terrorize her by
seeking all the neighbours sympathy be for ourselves instead of for
asshole who tends to pretend moral is actually the best for lasting
eternally well, in a smart attitude, that is.”
Scornfully the evil twin girl giggled
about her good twin, and then said to her father just how he should
get into it with the neighbours so that everyone but she (the good
twin) would be free to enjoy their mistake about how to be
sufficiently on-the-point scornful about the mischiefs they are
subjected to by this family's arrogance about their confusion!
The good twin, meanwhile, was washing
her hair, which had been subjected to heat by the vengeance from a
neighbour who's tulips had been ruined by her twin. She was also in
pain, because the heat had hurt her very bad, but the mother only
giggled about her suffering and kept on scolding her for not being
like her somewhat younger evil twin.
“It is not that I am not a twin for
the sake of being a virtue for the evils of the family!” he younger
twin had said, teasingly, about the fact that she was the younger but
still more trusted one - because their parents were evil enough to
want an evil twin to gain any advantage, and they also terrifically
well knew about the the older one that she was the fool of the
family.
Thereby, the whole family, which
included several half-siblings, two maternal and four paternal, plus
one full sibling who had actually moved out. These evil family
members later would advocate for the story to be tempting for others
to be into for the virtue of making evil eternal. It was due to their
blackmail that the evil twin would seem good in advocate positions of
spirituality, so that the evil deeds of her and most of her family
could hardly at all be traced by anyone not well enough tempted by
the notion of eternalizing evil their way!
But later, the two parents ran into a
woman who headed an extremely evil family, who saw in their position
of caring about even that surface of moral to be useful for her
purposes, and who could find it amusing to do that at their cost. She
was a business woman who accused almost anyone whom she got near
enough in social life and so of being too awkward to be trusted,
while she herself could gain from good as the virtue of evil in even
more efficient ways. The family with the twins had it in them to have
killed off the older (and good) twin for the better of the welfare of
the family's pertinence to seeming better than she was, and then also
winning by blackmail their eternal souls to the extent it was
possible to win it that way, they thought. But the evil twin who was
left could not avoid seeming good in this circumstance, and thus fell
victim with her family of the business woman who thus sold their
secrets soon enough to be able to seem the fairly trustworthy among
the awkward and untrustworthy. Thereby the belief of the father,
which had been that murder would be the ultimate plot for eternity
was totally proven wrong.
The family, who exploited one of their
daughters, actually had the attitude of witches, and so did the
business woman who later exploited them; they all thereby considered
themselves inclined for attitudes of revenge against good, but could
not prove themselves without beating each other at it.
It was the women of their society who
proclaimed evil be of eternal presence. but it was the males of their
contexts who proclaimed eternity be worthwhile to consider fake if
not pertaining to their immorality, which would be at least as smart
at evil as the witches' once they managed to revenge that morality
that stopped their love for eternal immorality and so also the
witches'.
The younger and evil twin sister
thereby saw a possibility of real revenge against good when her
father spoke to her about his considerations about how evil could not
be stopped once they managed to blame the older twin totally. The
older twin had thus not the chance to say to everyone that she had
been mistreated into being the nuisance they made her be, nor that it
was her sister's mischief they had come up against time and again.
It was not until eternal time had
passed that the older sister got her vindication and resurrection.
Then, after the eternity of suffering for the spirit of that poor
elder sister, she got her vindication from that her mother finally
totally lost her soul. But it was not until then, because the witches
of that world were able to resurrect their spirits smartly for the
sake of keeping the black soul they said to themselves that it was
going to last for eternity. Then, upon this, the worst of the other
family members fell with her. This is a true story, only it happened
in another world which was not like ours, but where witches are
present and which is inadequate for our world to be presented as
quite intuitive about - although we can sometimes actually have some
notion about it anyway, such as the notion I have for writing this,
which actually happens very soon after that witch mother's total soul
loss. ... !
Thursday, May 7, 2015
The Witches
”No! Indeed not at all any moral in
that man!”
“How can you say this is an act?!”
Josephine writhed a little before
attempting to answer. “Well, ... how can I put this. ... He's the
kind of person who pretends to be of the mentality of the spiritual
victims he has! I know he and his sisters all do it!”
David looked a little stunned. “The
whole family, then, Josy?”
She looked seriously into his eyes.
“No, I don't think it's the father, but hat mother might be the one
to also be into it!”
“Gee!” David said with an air of
being troubled.
“Exactly, David! So there they are,
all four of them, it seems to me, able to be modern-time witches!”
David looked at her in amazement. “Do
you mean those witches are for real, Josy”
“I mean they're for real and they are
alive right now, ready to target yet another one of those innocent
people that will probably die under more or less troubled and
mysterious circumstances!”
“We have to, then, I guess, tell some
people about it! But can we really get them to take this stuff
seriously!? I mean witches, in modern times ... ”
She looked at him with a somewhat
startled expression. “I don't know how you can say that to me! I
can believe they see it in them, they like me, or at least as much as
you! ... or I mean, let's not just say so. That is, if they don't
already know about it, let's show them!”
“I guess we can do that!”
“Good! Let's start with that girl
down the block! You know that redhead whom they seemingly have been
pestering for about two months!”
“Yeah, let's! I can feel that this is
turning out to be a worthwhile and interesting investigation, in the
sense that we can perhaps learn something about the occult while
we're at it!”
She smiled a little. “Yeah! I felt
that already even yesterday!”
A few minutes later they knocked on the
door of a red-haired girl named Cecilia Saedefdovic. She opened and
listened to them. After a while she said: “There's an actual
cunning in those four witches, it seems to me! They actually have had
me feel desperate after seeming normal in the sense that they can
probably register by their sixth sense! Thereby I will be trying to
permit the two of you to examine the evidence I can have about it,
but it's not an easy task to do so!”
She thereby let the two of them in and
offered them some coffee.
“I will drink coffee later on in the
afternoon,” Josephine answered. David looked at her and then at the
girl they were investigating. “I, too,” he said, “can easily
wait with the coffee, and I think it's better if we start talking
immediately, if you don't mind.”
Cecilia shrugged. “Okay, I can go for
that!” she replied.
“Good!” David said.
“Then let's start like this,”
Josephine broke in, “I sure see it in you that they are harassing
you by spirit! As an investigator of such mysterious crimes I feel it
is they, the witches, who take advantage of the situation you have
about that late husband of yours!”
“You mean that they killed him?”
she asked.
“Yes! ... As I understand it he had a
huge gambling debt, which they felt he should have to suffer from for
not paying in time.”
“Yeah, that's correct.”
“Thereby, they have the pressure on
you too - correct me if I'm wrong about this - to be trying to
be into handling the situation as though you were in debt!”
“Yes, that is so!”
“And,” she continued, “the
witches got to know about this when they found out that you were
thorough about seeming to be very good and moral, right?”
“Yes, that's probably it! They did
indeed try to harass me about it! That is all three of the children
were trying to taunt me, and that old hag of a mother they have
managed to ridicule the notion of that they should stop pestering
me!”
“Good of you to tell me! Thereby he
and I can continue this investigation, which I started by myself
yesterday!”
David nodded. He seemed to feel that he
was into something quite new, while his colleague seemed a bit sure
about what she was into.
“The suspects are,” David said,
“investigated by us for the reason of their tendency to always
harass people around and in their neighbourhood. It is far from only
you who have been pestered in something that seems similar to what
you just told us about your situation!”
“I feel comfortable now that the two
of you - and possibly even more people? - feel that it's worth it
check them up and hopefully stop them!”
“Oh! Cecilia!” Josephine burst out.
“Then perhaps you also could be taking part of it!”
Cecilia sighed. “Yeah, I think I can,
because they aren't able to put that spell on me when you're around
- at least not if it's both of you, it seems!”
The three of them thereby went to a
fellow, named Jesse Adamson, whom Cecilia knew to also have the
problem with those witches. At his apartment, they asked him to
describe his situation with them. He said that he was unable to point
out, somehow, usually, about them, that they really were harming him.
“As a matter of fact,” he said
referring referring to the children, “the three of them are into
seeing it in me to be able to cope for myself about being a sexual
predator, wile actually being there themselves and troubling others
with it! They - all four of them - seem innocent at first. Then,
after a while one notices their awful insinuations that contain both
sexual and other harassments, I think. But they seem to be harassing
them from a distance, and somehow having it that I am that predator
that the four of them are!”
Josephine looked at him with some
sympathy. “You seem possible to view as immune to accusations in a
way that could be their trick for having them believe they can't
challenge you about it!”
Cecilia looked at the two of them.
“Yes. I think I could have thought of you as a serial-killer, even,
had I not known you for a very long time.”
Jesse took his time before replying.
“It's all about the tendency they have to be into moral as though
it was about seeming potentially into it, while I feel that one
should say to oneself that one should be into moral a the natural
starting point, which thereby should be supposedly there whether or
not one thinks about it.”
“I cannot assume that it's me that
it's all about!” Cecilia said thoughtfully. “Because for me it's
the venom of seeming innocent that supports their evil attitudes
about me, and somehow fixes it for them to have a view on me as the
sort of person who should be harassed forever ... somehow!”
David looked at the three others and
said: “It seems to me that it's about time we start to investigate
how they manage to get their telepathy working even though they are
clearly into Satan and not God!”
Jess took a deep breath. “Yeah,” he
said. “We should all try to telepathise back, right?”
David looked at him and answered: “I
can say we shouldn't take the risk of arrogantly getting into their
telepathy! Even so, I propose we should be ready to take that kind of
battle with them at a later stage!”
Jess sighed and said that he felt like
doing it now, but that since David thought it unwise, he realized
that it was not true that his emotions were wise.
Soon after, Josephine immediately her
eyes and began telepathising, it seemed. A few moments later David
did the same, but only for a few seconds. Though his colleague was
still at it, he whispered: “It's us that it should seemingly be who
can telepathise with no reason to seem guilty of any mishaps
anywhere. Thereby, one shouldn't reach the specific target too fast!”
he said.
With that he managed to get the other
two to be careful about it. Cecilia then closed her eyes and felt for
a while. Soon after Jesse did so too. Upon this, David went back to
doing it again.
After half an hour, Josephine said,
with her eyes still closed: “I have a notion of what they are about
now! If you feel like it, you can follow me in telepathy to their
home and invade their thoughts enough to stop them, hopefully, from
being too successfully evil to be manageable for us good people!”
Also without opening his eyes, her
colleague David whispered back: “Alright! Let's do it!”
The two others managed to follow them.
When all four of them were there, they managed also to feel their way
to their spirits and to turn them forever against themselves. This
they had initially intended to do with both Jess and Cecilia, but
weren't quite smart enough to!
Thus, with this seance, the whole story
of the evil people of seeming innocent while also bewitching was over
apart from that there was also a potential reprisal in that anyone
they might be related to, and (only possibly) some acquaintances that
were not relatives. This they managed to turn around to that they
should chase those people better than vice versa, which seemed to
start a battle between them and relatives of the four initial witches
that lasted for two hours. Upon this, a shift in the air was
apparent, and the witches seemed to be doomed to eternal punishments,
finally!
Sunday, May 3, 2015
It is the Sex of Perilous Sophistication ...
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Wednesday, April 22, 2015
The Look-Alikes
Chapter One
“It's hardly working to look at them
as my enemies!” she proclaimed.
“Why not!?” her mother pursued.
“Because, if they don't argue with
me, then I can't have them seem below taking me for granted as their
friend!”
“I see!” Her mother now looked a
bit amused.
“This is not funny mother! Moreover,
ma, they're not even only my enemies! They might have not only me,
but our whole our farming industry seem corrupt, even, I think, by
seeming to be into me and what I'm about in our business! It is they
who try to steal from my assets - that is at least my assets in the
abstract sense, mama!”
“How can you say that? They're trying
to steal your name that's what it's about! Your real assets are still
stuff that they can't be touching, at least if they're of the
immaterial sort!”
“I can't believe they seem to be too
similar to me, to let me get away from them at both! I can't see how
people can react to me as though I was that mediocre at representing
our business and stuff, if it's not one, at least, of them has been
faking something about what they should expect!”
“I can see that you're into that he
- or even if that is she - is sort of into trying to pretend that
she, your female look-alike, is the one that seems peculiarly into
business of our kind! But I can't see how in the world they could in
that case be pretending that you're lousier than she at showing what
we're all about!”
“That's why I feel so upset about
them! It's horrible that they can somehow point to me as though I
weren't a girl who could be representative of our vegetables!”
“Thereby I shall now view you as the
mediocre member of our family, who doesn't pertain to seeming good
enough to be a representative! You know, it's not I who ever had such
look-alike problems!”
A little bit chocked Stephanie said: “I
will then have it they're not too dumb after all, mama! Cause I was a
promising girl for our business!”
“I can't help you with any of this,
Steph! I couldn't help you even if they were people that I knew more
about than that one of them were in your elementary school and the
other one on an opposing high school's badminton team.”
“How, then can you be pretending that
I'm not into any trouble because of them!? I mean there's much to be
lost and I've already begun loosing because of the two of them!”
“I can't see that you're trying to
ignore them the natural way! If you did, then they would certainly
quit soon enough!”
“Bull shit!”
“I don't want to hear you talk that
way again! No go up to your room and study! When you come back, I
hope you have thought things over and never again mention those two
look-alikes!”
Chapter Two
In school the next day, Stephanie saw
her male look-alike seeming to be her, or, that is, the way she could
be expected to look nowadays if she hadn't stopped wearing pants. “I
feel that they seem to be torturing me because of my asshole
look-alikes, and they know it!” she thought about her fellow
pupils.
Entering her math class room, she felt
a scorn coming her way from a few of the other students there. There
could be a clue, perhaps, she figured, about who to be taking to,
were it not for these awful scorns that seemed to stick to her by
telepathy! “I feel,” she thought, “that I don't have any
friends anymore, after they began cooperating, those two!”
Sitting down, she tried to recall what
her father once said about them. It was something like “There's no
clue, then, to whatever they're about as long as they express
themselves as being the same as the look-alike they found in you!”
In thinking about this, she found an essence of what they were doing,
which was not too smart to say they were into some obscure point that
was of gain for the others or so - “and try, thereby to have it
the point is not made unless they ridicule me, who somehow should be
seen as the misfit who rendered those points to ... something ...
something they all hate me for doing, I guess!” she thought for
herself.
While she was pondering upon this, the
teacher had entered the class room. She didn't seem to be in any good
mood. After a while she knocked a few times on the table in front of
her and said rather loudly: “I will see to it that all of you study
better! It's not to be said that any of you will seem to be smart
enough for a good college unless you really start listening to me and
studying more at home!”
There was a murmur among the students
for a few seconds, after which the teacher said: “I will test you
every Friday from now on! And to the extent you can't tend to follow
class well enough to pass each test, the grade you have will be
lowered!”
A boy raised his hand and she told him
to speak his mind. He proclaimed: “I can't be here every Friday! I
have art class then!”
“I will then see to it that another
time be arranged for you!
“I will also see to it that the
others don't speak to you during the time between then and their
testing time!”
“Okay!” the boy answered.
Stephanie tried to figure out how
difficult the tests were going to be, but couldn't tell. And when the
teacher began her lesson she worked on trying to figure it out for
each and every statement she made. She also tried very hard to learn
what she said.
Chapter Three
“I can't figure out why they're
cunning about me!” Stephanie said to a fellow pupil, who she
thought was perhaps still her friend.
But she looked at her as though the
seeming friend she had been suddenly disappeared. “It's not true
that they are at all cunning about it! Instead, they're trying to
find out if they are able to see the way they seem to you to be alike
but somehow different!” she answered.
“I can't see how come, then, they
think that I should be portrayed as though I wasn't into my parents'
vegetable business!”
Her would-be friend seemed dismayed. “I
don't have any clue about why you imagine that about them!”
“I can say that they already have had
my parents feel that I cannot run the business after they die!”
“I imagine you actually blame him and
that girl from that other school for it?!”
“I don't go for the fakes that they
are into! They are pretending that I want to pretend to be a business
woman already! It is totally fake of the two of them!”
“I can't believe they're trying to
pretend that!” her would-be friend said and left her.
Chapter Four
On Friday Stephanie sat in the math
class room and took the test. She felt reassured that she could
manage these tests, if only they stayed this simple. Even so she very
thoroughly saw to it that every question was answered the way it
probably should be according to her teacher. After class she went to
straight the room were they had English lessons, and waited there.
She sat in the back of this classroom, while the math teacher had had
her up front. But she wasn't trying to be into saying to herself that
there was going to be any rumours about her as long as she didn't
change her seat in either place - just like in most of her classes.
The English lesson went well enough for
her not to feel that someone could start ridiculing her for not
following well enough. Thereby she only had one more challenge of
that kind before weekend, and if that went well too, she would go
home and study and see to it that no one could find faults with her
about studies, at least.
While going to the class room for
social studies, she tried to figure out what the other pupils might
think she was trying to be. It was not trying to be smart at anything
they had yet seemed to be thinking. It was somehow still that she
somehow seemed to them to be stuck up in the ridiculous way that
seemed to tell everyone that she was to be despised as if cunning in
a fairly absurd way.
Seated in the classroom, she overheard
some fellow students speak about her: “I wonder when she'll find
out that he's just trying to be smart enough to be of the same
attitude as the business woman he imagines her to be!” Another one
answered: “And I too wonder about her. I wonder why she sets the
stage as if there was no losers out there, trying simply to be
somewhat better than they are in reality!” A third one said: “I
can see it in her to be the attempt they both, actually, can have for
seeming actual about caring for business, and thereby she wouldn't be
too stuck up if she just accepted them!”
She solemnly took this as the sign that
it was, probably, that they were trying to figure out a way to treat
her as though they were so humble by her comparison. “I can't
figure them to be my friends anymore,” she repeated for herself. It
was not solemn to be into hypocrisy about this, she figured, but then
again “What the fuck, they're not going to be smart enough to be
able to figure out what I'm into if I just keep on going without a
sign about what I want apart form what I obviously aught to do!”
Thereby she felt reassured that she
could keep on trying to be okay, at least, in school, without that
being too much of a lead for them and her two look-alikes.
Chapter Five
“I can't see why they are weird
enough to stop having it they want to be like me now. Is it, perhaps,
because I didn't fail to seem normal and smart during a few weeks?”
Her father looked at her. “There's no
way to see it in them to be tying to be pretending to be you again
then, is there?!”
She sighed quite deeply. “I think
they're simply trying to hide that they're into it still! I think
they still are pretending to be like me! And come to think of it, I
guess they're just working on trying to be good in class, which
perhaps both of them were very lousy at - or at least he was, dad.”
“I propose, then, Steph, that you and
he have a talk about this look-alike nonsense! Because if he's still
into it, as you say, then it's about time he realized that he has to
live a life of his own! From now on, even, I hope!”
“I will not try to talk to him unless
he promises to be smart at presenting his reasons for pretending to
be me in the first place!”
“Okay, I'll tell his parents that, I
guess!”
A few weeks later the two of them did
talk. He then said that attempts to be like her had been about trying
to be into business like everybody else in this area, and that his
parents had been outcasts because they weren't. It was not easy to
get him to say much about why he thought pretending to be her would
lead him to be smart at actually being like her, nor why that so
certainly would help him exactly about being into business thinking.
She thereby asked: “I wonder how come
they seem to be into that you take it that you're learning something
from me?!”
“I feel I don't find that to be
impossible! I have learned somehow to be in garden and think about
business as what should spring from the plants and vegetables there!”
“Why don't you try to do that without
pretending that I am the one you are when you do it?!”
“Because it's not worth it to say
they accept me as such as easily as you! That's why!”
“Then why - ... Or actually, who do
you mean by 'they'?!”
“I mean whoever might be seeming to
care about whether or not I do such business!”
“Okay, then why do they seem to be
into trying to care about who is doing that?!”
“Because they seem into that one
should have the reputation of already being one who does it!”
“I can't see that they should all be
trying to pretend that I had any reputation of already being into my
parents' business!”
“I can't say anything but that I have
had benefits from trying to be you when I do it!”
“Then how come they seem to be into
themselves as smart enough to do business even without pretending to
be someone else!?”
“I can't say they don't have their
families in that!”
“I can't really believe that!”
“Why not?!”
“Because they don't seem intuitive
about when business is to be reckoned with, and even less do you!”
“I do not see the reason for you to
say that!”
“I can't see in you, nor should you
see in me, anything of being into business as of yet!”
“I don't agree!”
“Then stop pretending I am at all
into as much of thinking that I'm into business as you are yourself!”
“I can't stop telling myself that
there isn't any reason to be into business the way those who have a
heritage for it are!”
“Then why do they seem to pretend
that I am lousier at it since you started doing it?!”
“Because there's not any attempt in
you to try to be the one to be sure about what business really is
about for the sake of being the one I imitate!”
“I wonder how come they in that case
find themselves to be of potential for judging over this stuff!?”
“I can't feel they're into being
judgemental! It's about that they're trying to be into business too,
but not attempting to say to themselves that they are supreme at it!”
“ I thereby feel you should imitate
one of them instead of me!”
“No, I can't!”
“Why is that?!”
“Because I feel there's no look-alike
in anyone of them!”
“How about that girl who also is our
look-alike?! You know the one who seemed to aspiring for some other
school's badminton team, though failing to be much more than a
spectator.”
“I guess she is as little of a
business person as me!” he proclaimed.
“I propose they then try to be as
smart as we, my family, at seeing it in her, and you, to be something
of a person suitable for the challenges of business! Because I and my
family have since the two of you started doing it, quarreled about
how to look at me as suitable. They are at least as smart as my
parents and me at it, I say!”
“I feel that they and you don't feel
that you nor they are ever to be viewed as possible failures! I
thereby feel that both she and I have the point to make that is there
in that you don't realize the mistake of not seeing it as a
possibility that you could go wrong!”
“I will not see it in you to be able
to try to be me again!” With that she sued him.
It did not turn out well for him. But
the girl who pretended to be her thereby pretended she had done so
because the stuck-up family she had was not into any humility at all.
She thereby sued her as well - and manage to get at her to with it.
However, there was sort of a reprisal
against her even so, she thought, in that the scorn for having been
'imitated' by him made her seem silly in a way that people her really
stood for was a sign that she could not be an ordinary person. This
was more true about the male, first and from-the same district
'imitator' of her. But almost the same held true for the girl
'imitator'. However, she had apparently studied the two of them.
Because she managed to portray herself thoroughly as an unsuitable
victim of similar stuff. Sort of very startlingly she somehow did so
in a way that ridiculed both her two look-alikes, and also portrayed
them as just about the same. This scared Stephanie, but didn't quite
get her to give up her authority over her future. ...
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